Waves Of Grief Persist

 

It is coming up on six months of me loosing my little buddy, the Christed Buddha, and every time I believe that I am done with the process, the grieving and emotions persist. Today has been one of the hardest days for me to get through in a while. Lets discuss some reasons this may be. 

How long should I be grieving?

I believe I have mentioned in one of my other blogs about how "long" the grieving process "should" be. Most sources agree, like this quote from Scientific Ameircan "Symptoms of acute grief after the loss of a pet can last from one to two months, with symptoms of grief persisting up to a full year (on average)." Notice that I underline "average" as people are different, and because of this, will experience grief in different ways, and for different times. So, even though it has been almost six month for me now, that doesn't mean that my grieving is done. As one continues to go through this process, it will unfold in ways that may be familiar to them, or it may be something all together new. For me personally, it has been a mixed bag of some familiar feelings, as well as some new emotional territory to go through. 

Dealing with loss as an empath

Something else that I wanted to touch on in a blog of it's own is dealing with loss as an empath. However, I believe taking this opportunity to deal with this topic would be advantages. An empath is a person that has feelings, and thus emotions that run extremely deep. Most times much deeper than a "normal" person feels on the inth degree type of level. Empths also feel emotions from people, situations, and animals deeply as well. So, being an empath, and having to deal with loss, and consequently, emotional grieving, you can imagine that it gets rough some times. However, being able to connect to other empaths that can understand what one is going through, and support them in times of distress is extremely helpful. 

What Is An Empath?

The CB helped to balance me out

The longer that I find myself dealing with this loss, and feeling emotions as deeply as I do, it's very challenging some times to continue on. Being an empath, my lil buddy helped me balance my life out, as he was always there to comfort me in times of need, and support me, so to speak, just by physically being in my space. In addition to being an empath, I'm also a combat veteran. So, there is another layer of sensitivity that I have to deal with when going out into the world. When the Christed Buddha was still here, I was able to be in the world daily without to much issue because he would help to balance me out and ground me in this moment. Now, that support is gone..  and I feel like a "nerve" so to speak, out in the chaotic, and loud world. 😔 

Doing my best to honor the process

So, in conclusion, I can say that I am ready to be done with this grieving process. However, I want to honor the memory of my lil buddy, and give him the respect, and love that he deserves in my grieving process. I also want to do my best to be gentle with myself, and allow the process to continue in it's own time frame. I'll continue to blog on this topic as I need to, as often as feels right. 

Until next time, remember to pay attention to your emotions, and give them to space and respect that they deserve. 

D