Hind Sight

 Taking Perspective

 

   Looking At The Path Behind Me

    I have spent the past almost seven months now in the midwest, because I was moved here for a job, which I no longer have. Being here, and needing to navigate the path I am on, has been overwhelming, stressful, and challenging all at the same time. I am usually pretty good at paying attention to my intuition, but even though I believed I was being led to come here, it really was not the next right step for me to take. Additionally, I am still dealing with my loss, and trying to work through that. There is an old saying.. "Hind Sight Is Always 20/20". I am not sure if I totally agree with that, but knowing what I know now, and seeing how this move has been overly stressful, and not supportive, leads me to believe that as long as I pay attention to  my hind sight, I will learn the lesson that I need to. 

  

   Still Planning On Going "Home" 

    As I plan on moving back to wear I moved up from, I am facing new challenges of a unique kind in finding a job, and a place to live in the area that I want to one day settle down in. I am confident that I will get this task completed, but not sure exactly how long it will take to get back. I don't have any desire to remain where I am currently staying, but I know that everything happens for a reason, and it usually happens in "divine timing" which I like to believe is perfect. However, as human nature goes, I am anxious and ready to be back "home" in the mountains, and enjoying all that that affords me to do. Once I get back, I don't plan to uproot myself again, unless something extremely important happens on my path. However, I will do all I can to take it one step at a time. 

 

    Not Happy

    The longer I stay in the area I am currently in, the more "empty", and numb I seem to feel. I'm not sure if it's being in the geographical location, or dealing with my life circumstances as they continue to unfold. All I can do is trust the process and make the choices I want to when opportunities present themselves. 

 

    That's all I have for this time. Until next time, remember to be true to yourself, and trust your intuition. It will never steer you wrong. 

D 

 

                                Grieving Again

 

Time to heal some more

It has been two years and almost four months now since I lost my buddy, and I am still healing. I did find a "new" cat that I took on for about a year, but, I surrendered her today to the local shelter because I am still not ready. I originally took her because she looked exactly like the Christed Buddha. But, she wasn't him, and that took me a little while to learn. So, now I am alone again, and I am not looking for another kitty until I have fully grieved and really feel I am ready for another pet. 

 

Working on getting back "home"

Also, I am now living in the Midwest part of the country, and as they say hind sight is always 20/20, I am now seeing that the move was one of the worst decisions I have made as of late. My intent was to be closer to family, but that "reason" didn't pan out like I thought it would. 

 

Stay tuned

So, that's about all I had to say this time, and I will do what I can to post again soon. My intent is to get back to the south as soon as I can, but it is proving more challenging then I thought it would be. However, I will continue my forward movement.

Until next time,

D

Infinit possibilities

 

It's been some time since I have blogged about anything, so I wanted to take a moment and post something up.

Lots of change

There has been a huge amount going on in my life as of late. After I graduated college, I was looking for a job in my field, which I found in another state. So, I had to move across half the country to obtain this position, only to later on loose it. Needless to say, it has been a trying time for me in this new place, alone, and with no support. 

Change, the universal constant

After moving, change continued to be in my field, and impact my life. Yes, I lost my job that I moved all the way across half the country for, but was I brought all this way for just a job? I don't know the answer to that question yet. Slowly, I am starting to build my support network here, and I am meeting new people, and obtaining new employment. All that said, at this current moment in time, I am still planning to move "back home" close to the place I came from. While things are continuing to change, I am starting to practice some of my other talents such as photography. So, it's an interesting time in my life for sure. 

One step at a time

I am constantly trying to do my best to take things one step at a time. Most of the time, I am frustrated about the feeling of being "stuck" in a place I don't know, and don't have a large support system set up, but if I keep moving forward one step at a time, I am confident things will start to come together eventually. 

Still suffering loss

I am still dealing with my loss from time to time, and I get sad thinking about not having my buddy by my side any longer, but I know one day we will be reunited and everything will be balanced once again. For now, I take it one day at a time, and do my best to move that loss energy as I'm able. 

Until next time

I guess that's it for now. Thank you again for following me, and reading my blog. If I can remember, I will do my best to start posting on a regular basis again, and update as things continue to unfold on this new path I'm on. 

D